As I have gotten older, my priorities, dreams, goals, aspirations, and my bucket list have all changed. I suppose that is normal for all of us. For instance, when I was in college at The University of Florida, I had a serious boyfriend…My first true love. I thought we would be together forever. I just KNEW he was ‘THE ONE’ and after college, we would move in together (which we did), and that would eventually lead to marriage and the family I thought I always wanted. Well….that didn’t quite work out the way I had expected. After we broke up, the next 10 years of my life were spent wasting time and wandering aimlessly from place to place, job to job, etc. Fast forward to now, and my life is nothing like I had imagined it would be. I thought I’d be married with 2 or 3 kids and possibly being a stay-at-home mom by now. It’s funny how life DOESN’T turn out the way you expected. I know one day it will be revealed why, and I’m sure I’ll be glad.
Fast forward to today, and it’s 6:00am here in Denver (a place I’d never thought I’d end up living!), I’m having my morning coffee, and writing to you all. I’ll be getting ready for work here soon… It’s obvious now that I work in Fashion. And kind of strange too when I think about it. I was never interested in Fashion when I was younger. I was a competitive swimmer for 10 years and kind of a tomboy. I never really got dressed up, or wore any makeup (or even knew how to apply makeup until I was much older). My Passion for Fashion is something that has developed slowly over the years, and has gotten stronger, until I finally knew that working in Fashion was going to be my career. Now, I live, work, think, and dream about Fashion! And not in that selfish, ‘what will I wear or what can I buy’ kind of way. In the almost 2 years working at Nordstrom, I’ve come a long way! I’ve developed my own edgy sense of style, I’ve learned SO much and will continue to learn, and I’m so grateful to have finally found a job that I’m passionate about and that has so much room to grow into basically whatever I want. I’ve learned that I have a serious Passion for Designer Fashion, and that THAT is where I eventually want to work in. Before working at Nordstrom, there were so many designers I had never even heard of, and now it would be odd to hear a designer and NOT know who that is! I’ve done well in a very short amount of time at Nordstrom, I’ve become the top seller in my department, have many customers that I’ve built relationships with and even made friends with, I’ve gotten the coveted All-Star Award, which is basically the highest honor you can get at Nordstrom. However, I feel like I have so much more potential that isn’t being utilized right now. But, I’m not writing any of this to brag about my accomplishments. It’s actually quite the opposite. The quote below basically sums up the way I feel about my career. I finally feel Peace and now know I’m where I’m supposed to be.
Before Fashion, I always felt like something was missing in my life and every job felt wrong. I didn’t want to go through my whole life working a job that I had absolutely no passion for. I finally feel at Peace knowing that I have at least found my dream career, if nothing else! And like the quote below, it REALLY is a beautiful thing when a career and a passion come together. I know that doesn’t happen for a lot of people, so I feel very blessed.
Life is still not perfect by any means… I am still single, I don’t have the boyfriend/husband/kids that I always thought I wanted. I’m still not convinced that I want that, or if I’ve been ‘taught’ to THINK I want that. It’s hard enough juggling my job, spending time with my friends, working out, eating well, etc. Throw in kids and a husband, and I don’t know that I would have found this career, or been happy with the things I just mentioned, which are the things I always THOUGHT I wanted! Maybe I’m just not ready for those things yet, so in the meantime, I’m going to make everything I can of this great career, because the sky is the limit. Again, funny how things DON’T work out the way I thought they would!
So, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned it’s ok to be single, and have learned (or rather, am learning), to accept this. Maybe I’ll meet the man of my dreams tomorrow. Or maybe it may take a little longer. I have learned it’s not as easy as it used to be, and he’s not going to come knock on my door. I have to put myself out there more. But, I’m just going to do my thing and focus on my career. I don’t know what God or the Universe has in store for me, so I’m just going to to have faith and BELIEVE that there’s a bigger plan! There are some perks and drawbacks to being single, but I’m going to do my best to focus on the positive! I still can’t imagine that God would plan for me to be alone forever. Plus, I’m not alone… I have Scarlet!
I’ve also learned that life is too short…. So buy the shoes, go on that vacation, spend more time with your family and friends (pet family included), train for that marathon, hike that 14ner, go somewhere you’ve never been, don’t waste time (but relax when you need to), and spend every moment being GRATEFUL that you get to live in this beautiful, albeit flawed, world, and never take advantage of time. It goes by so fast…..
As far as my Bucket List, that’s a whole other post in general. Spoiler Alert – NYC is part of that plan.. so stay tuned!
xoxo Jess from Fashion & Style by J Rose🌹