As you can tell by my title and can probably guess… I am currently 39 years old, but am about to be 40 in just a few short days! I have NOT been looking forward to turning 40, but I am trying to put a positive spin on it! Turning 40 simply isn’t the worst thing in the world, right? RIGHT?!
This past year has been filled with ups and down, wild turns, roller coasters, and really a crazy theme park wild ride. I’ve certainly had much worse years, and I’d even consider my 39th year on this earth to be a pretty good one overall. I have a lot to be grateful for – I’m still working in Fashion, which I love; I’m still very healthy, although I’d like to be more fit going into my 40’s; I still have my best friend and baby girl, Scarlet, my American Bulldog, who is 5 now; I have a great, supportive mother in my life; I don’t think I look 40😉; And I’m doing ok financially. Plus countless more things I am grateful for.. So why does turning 40 scare me?
Well, I think it scares me because I’m not where I thought I’d be in my life right now. But who really is? I thought I’d be married with kids a LONG time ago. Never in a million years did I think it would ever be possible for me to be turning 40 and still be single. It also scares me because I have a very small family, no siblings, and I’m only close with my mom, who obviously won’t be around forever. Yes, she is also getting older! We are all getting older as each second passes. So I worry sometimes that when my mom is gone (God forbid, but still being realistic), I will REALLY be alone, and that part terrifies me!
But, I said I was putting a positive spin on turning 40, so I’m not going to talk about the morbidity of my mom, or the fact that I’m still single without kids. Although, I just did, didn’t I? Ok, so NOW I’m not going to talk about that. I’m going to believe that there is a reason for these things, and I really do believe there is a reason! Even though I’m not exactly where I thought I should be in life at this age, I’m going to trust the Universe that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be, whatever the reasons. I’m going to believe that there is a plan and I’m living out that plan perfectly right now!
So for the moment, I’m going to focus on the great year of 39 I just had! I continued to grow and advance in my Fashion career (New York 5 Year Plan, here I come!), I still enjoy my job and look forward to what the future holds in it, I have a great family and supportive mother who I’m very close with, I have wonderful friends and have become close with some at work who want to take me out that night, I am still loving and raising my Scarlet, who has turned out to be the best dog I could have ever asked for! She really has gotten me through some tough times, and I’m grateful I’m able to give her the best life for the short time she’s with me here.
I love this quote below talking about not being held back by a number… very inspirational! It speaks to me quite a bit because the closer I’ve gotten to the age of 40, I feel that I rush into things and try to go so fast because I don’t want to waste time. I do this specifically when it comes to my career in Fashion. I need to just slow down and breathe and let things happen, without becoming overly complacent of course.
So as I finish up this post, TODAY is my 40th birthday! It just feels like a normal day so far… I’m going to get a few chores done and then get to having some fun! I have the whole day off of work and my mom and I are going to have a shopping day together, which sounds wonderful. She is one of just a few people who I actually like to shop with (I’m a lone shopper normally). That evening, I’m going to meet up with some work friends and have just a chill night with them at a sports bar. It was nice of them to want to take me out and they seem to be excited for a night out too! They all knew I was having a hard time with turning 40, so I’m glad they are forcing me out of the house to have some fun! Hopefully we don’t get too crazy, as we all have to work the next day. But knowing this crew, we will get crazy lol! Either way, it will be a fun time! 🍻🎂
Thank you for reading everyone and thank you for allowing me to share my thoughts on getting older. I think my 40’s will be my best decade yet! They do say that your 40’s are the new 30’s, after all!
EDIT: Just wanted to give a little update on my birthday… it was actually a really nice day and evening! Mom and I postponed shopping until this weekend because I was so exhausted from working 5 days in a row on my feet on a busy retail weekend, and the last thing I wanted to do was go to the mall. So I just relaxed for most of the day and then went to the bar to meet some gurlfriends that night! We had a great time – great friends, great conversation, lots of laughs, and just an overall great evening out! So it turns out that turning 40 really didn’t phase me much lol 😂!
xoxo Jess from Fashion & Style by J Rose