My Holiday Blues

Not sure what’s going on with me this year, but for some reason, I can’t seem to get into the Christmas Spirit! I have the house decorated, the lights are up, I work at Nordstrom with Christmas music playing all day (maybe that’s the problem, lol), and I LOVE Christmas! But this year seems different. There’s no snow on the ground and we haven’t had snow for a awhile. But that shouldn’t bother me too much considering I’m from Florida and am used to 80 degree Christmas Day’s… No, there’s something else… If I could put my finger on it, maybe I could fix it. Or maybe I just need to get through it and accept my feelings and stay in the moment. But ‘the moment’ kind of stinks right now! So I do not accept that!
I won’t go on and on about the potential reasons for my Holiday Blues. I just hope it passes since Christmas is right around the corner and I’d really like to enjoy it. I have one more shopping day left before Christmas, and we all know I LOVE to shop, but that sounds terrible right now! I close tonight at Nordstrom and then have an early morning interview tomorrow (at a bigger Nordstrom in a different Department), so I won’t get much sleep tonight and need to find a way to be sharp at the interview. It’s a job I’ve been wanting for a while now. And from there, I need to finish my shopping on very little sleep. And then I work every day up until Christmas. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed and stressed!?
Usually I get the blues the day AFTER Christmas. This is the first time I’ve felt down before Christmas. I understand feeling down after Christmas, so it’s easier to accept that. You look forward to something all year, and then just like that… It’s over! And you start to think, “Now what? What do I look forward to now?” We are such a society of ‘right now’ and getting what we want, when we want it. Very few of us have the ability to just stay present and enjoy the ups and downs of each day. I know I have a problem with staying in the moment. I’ve tried to train my brain to do it, but so often I fall back into looking into the past or looking into the future and putting my expectations on an event. When those expectations aren’t met, I’m disappointed and sad. Ah, expectations! I learned a long time ago that having expectations was just setting myself up for disappointment. So why do I still do it? I’ve always done it, and I don’t think I’m alone in that, but to re-train your brain after so many years takes a lot of work, and I myself, have yet to find a quick cure. There isn’t a quick cure, because like I said, it takes WORK! And honestly, I’m not sure I know how to retrain my brain…(as I Google this exact subject to see if they have the answers lol)
I love this quote below. Just shows how most of us DON’T live in the moment.. This quote pretty much sums up having expectations as a whole: “Yeah, I have a boyfriend. I just haven’t met him yet. But he’s amazing and he always sends me flowers and candy and he lavishes me with jewelry and anything I want. Plus he’s a model, so he’s very handsome! He’s just perfect! But so am I, so it only makes sense that these 2 perfect human beings are together!”…..Said no one, EVER!
I think that this year I just need to accept that I’m a little overwhelmed and stressed (which doesn’t mean these feelings will last forever), and I believe it’s making me sad. Maybe when I get through tomorrow and the interview and shopping, things will start to look a little more ‘Christmasy’…. afterall, I’ll only have 4 working days until Christmas is here! And MAYBE, I can even make it a point to really try and work hard to stay focused on being present and staying in the moment! It will be a Christmas Miracle!
In spite of how I feel right now, I know all feelings (good and bad) will pass. So I’m confident that my ‘Christmas Blues’ will also pass, and maybe I’ll even learn something by going through this. In any event, I hope you all are in a better Christmas Spirit right now than I am, and I wish you all a very blessed holiday and Christmas! If anyone can relate though, I’d love to hear from you! 

Thanks for reading, my friends!

xoxo Jess from Fashion & Style by J Rose


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